Nicki's Page

Hi, I'm new to this site and don't quite know how it works.  I am on Celexa (antidepressant) and Vyvance (for ADD).  I find that the Vyvanse dulls my thinking.  I used to be able to put bits of information together from God alone knows where and see the patterns among them.  They'd just pop into my head pretty much fully formed.  No longer.  I miss it.  On the other hand, I don't just wander about the house wondering what to do next and not being able to start or finish anything.  On balance, I think I choose to take the medication.  More than zapping inspirations, I need to focus on an impending divorce, my three kids (although one is out of the house at college so independent) and getting the things done I need to get done.  I'm also glad to have more control on my emotions.  When my husband and I disagreed strongly, I could get just out of control upset.  Scared me and scared him too.  I'm so glad that emotional exaggeration is gone.  Life has trade-offs and, at this point, I have to trade off that zapping brain for managing the family life well.  I can go a-zapping again when the kids are fledged.