Loved your quote from Tom Robbins. I got a beautiful visual of me taking care of my star, shining her up then hoping on and riding in to wherever I have to go. coming to a blissful screeching halt. With confidance knowing where I'am is where I'm suppose to be at that moment! Thanks..*
I, too, totally get the mix of narcissism and low esteem comment! This is the essence of the experience for "twice-exceptional" people. I graduated from MIT, but it was a struggle, and I was a crappy student. Before then, everything was too easy. Thought I'd be a physicist, but ended up in science writing and technology communications. Just got an MFA in Creative Nonfiction (I'm almost 50), and just found out I'm ADD-I. My kids are "2e" too, one. age 10, dyslexic and the other, 12, dysgraphic, and maybe ADD.
I just wanted to let you know I empathize with your comment ("I have to say I am this strange mixture of narcissim and low self-esteem") on the Being really, really smart group page! I'm a 4th year PhD student - and I know I'm an amazing scientist with a great career trajectory - with piles (and piles, and piles) of things I can't organize that torment me and make me feel like I have no idea what I'm supposed to be doing half the time!